When is the last time you took a risk? How did it work out?
I took a leap of faith and committed myself to a church that I was a part of for ten years. I trusted them, fully. I opened my heart in ways I never had before, sharing my deepest secrets, my most vulnerable thoughts, and the insecurities I was still trying to heal from.
But somewhere along the way, that trust was broken. The very things I shared in confidence were thrown back at me… Twisted, mishandled, and used in ways that caused some of the deepest pain I’ve ever experienced.
What I thought was a safe place became a source of hurt, and what I believed was genuine turned out to be something else entirely. And that pain… raw, confusing, and heavy, is what gave life to this unfinished poem.
How quickly life can change and drive a person insane
How feeling on top of the world can swiftly morph into pain,
One day you’re smiling and your heart is full
The next day you’re the topic of public ridicule.
Two years ago I went through a depression so deep
That I did not want to wake up out of my sleep.
I used to wake up every day and stare at the ceiling
While my world was spinning and hurt was all that I was feeling.
People will tell you they love you but behind your back
They throw acid at your silhouette, what a morbid attack.
They spew lies to gain an advantage that doesn’t exist
Malicious and calculated, they will kill you with a kiss.
Have you ever questioned why you were alive?
Because death has to be better than rotting inside.
Waking up every day wiping tears from your face
Living a dark reality with no real escape.
Realizing that 10 years of your life was a circus act
And you were the main attraction and being laughed at.
You lost yourself along the way trying to be liked
And when the smoke cleared there was no one in sight.
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